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Friday, April 10, 2009

life truly sucks. everywhere i go, i see couples. holdin hands, givin each others pecks on de cheeks, huggin each other tightly, laughin at each other, smilin to each other, lookin at each other w so much passion and love.
wheres de love, right?

sighh. its just so difficult. i dont want to be near him anymore. i just want to stay away. bcos bein so near yet so far is FUCKIN FRUSTRATIN! i just feel sooooooooooo inadequate! like, is smtg Wrong with me? why dont i have you?? like sighhh...

soeffinfuckdup.

all i can do know is exhale. and loudly too! thats whad ive realised. its bcomin a bad habit and too obvious. i need to start pretendin. u dont always get whad u want when u bite a chocolate from a box of mixes rightt? so yeah. i have my ups and downs. but mainly downs. LOTS of it.

i need to try my best to stay away. not that hes TRYIN now anyway. to be a friend. a Best friend. how dare he actally thinks that way! when we dont talk and share anythin tgt! so fuckin messd up!

he'll get pissd if i say tt hes usin me. but isnt he!!? for one, maybe he isnt bcos hes NOT tryin to be friends. thats obvious, so i guess he always DOES have his reasons. hes always managed to coverup his ass. hes always managed to be soo nice.
is there even SUCH a person?! like nat used to tell me, nobody/no guy is that nice. smtg along those werds.
maybe there isnt. maybe otherwise.


SIGHHH. FUCKIN FUCKD UP!!!!!!!

always alone @ 11:50:00 PM