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Monday, April 13, 2009

im losin control.
im breakin down whenever and everywhere.
at least he'll be at home most of de time. but I have werk. i cant teach if im not stable!

i so badly need a break. a long one. one that i can just be alone and not be bothered abt de werld. abt de mechanics of livin. just think and think and think abt my screwd up life!

its so dificult to keep myself in check w THIS werld. i have to think of OTHERS and their feelins. how i might REALLY screw up my future. how I need to move on! its so FUCKIN difficult.

i hope hes happy. that im FUCKIN MISERABLE. why cant u just change ur FUCKIN MIND like how u changed ur FUCKIN HEART.

well, i guess u no longer have a heart. which speaks volume.

im not strong. i can pretend to be. and when de curtain really falls down, im back to bein me. weak.


AND DONT FUCKIN THINK THAT IM NOT TRYIN! IM FUCKIN TRYIN YOU FUCKIN ASSHOLE. YOU FUCKIN JERK. DONT YOU EVER DARE TO THINK I DONT TRY!!!!

always alone @ 12:12:00 PM